So Rob and I have had bed bugs for a while now. Probably 6 months. Having him spend less time at his place (where they're really bad) and more time here has stopped them from getting too badly. The bites don't effect him. They drive me crazy. We're fairly well contained them in the room, I think.
But anyway. After starting to wear my socks to bed (which is horrible, I feel bad for people who wear socks at home) and tucking my pj pants into them, and then my night shirt into that, I've managed to not get bitten on my feet and legs, which is the worst to have itchy. For whatever reason they chose to only really bite my right arm. Maybe it's the position I sleep in. I don't know. But it's got a lot of scars from this.
My boyfriend and I took of the sheets last night. I admit we don't do this often enough. We're only really home at night, and that's no time to be doing laundry that you need on your bed.
But I FINALLY steamed the comforter, the pillows, the pillow covers, then the top of the mattress, all along the side, flipped it and steamed the bottom. We got every crevice we could physically reach. Even the top and around the ends of the boxspring. I haven't had a new bite in 2 nights. I know we didn't fix the problem, but we've squashed it a lot. I haven't felt itchy. Haven't woken up in the middle of the night to itch. I have 37 scabs that are slowly healing. My skin is looking healthier. If we do this every week or so, and finally get all of the clothes heat cleaned (perhaps steamed) I may never get bit again. I'll be able to leave this mattress in the burn pile when I leave, and it'll be okay to buy new bedding and not worry about bugs in floor board cracks.
Seriously, I know most people will think less of someone for having bed bugs. They're hard to exterminate. And pricey. I'm poor as fuck. And we do what we can. Hopefully we'll have a chance to maybe move the mattress, steam the underside of the boxspring and sealing all of them up while we clean every plush thing we own.
XoXo,
S
January 31, 2013
January 25, 2013
fluffy puff
I'm loving this so hard.
I want to buy a white tail and have her color it or something. Maybe green. idk. But it's cute as fuck.
XoXo,
S
January 21, 2013
things and life stuff
"I'll admit that Taylor Swift doesn't sound like she's country but she is."
I'll post that again and bold the hilarity.
"I'll admit that Taylor Swift doesn't sound like she's country but she is."
If it doesn't SOUND like it's country, it's not. She has some country songs, but no, she's mostly pop. Pop with an acoustic guitar, sure, but pop.
ANYWAY.
I accidentally threw my lip ring away. I take it out to eat. I sit it on my tray. Every time. I've never forgotten to pick it back up and today I was not so lucky. It's gone forever. I don't have a second one either. And I'm broke for at least the next 9 days. If this grows shut I can't even get it re-pierced because my job won't let me have it in while I'm there.
And I just bleached my hair about 2 weeks ago, and I already have about a centimeter or new growth. At least I think it was only two weeks ago. Possibly 3. I guess that's not really fast for hair growth, but I haven't even had a chance to get my hair a good solid color and my roots are already visible. Doesn't help that they're dark and the rest if pastel blonde.
But I have 3 days off this week. Two of them are consecutive days. After 6 hours of work, I'm off for 48. And I rolled a 1lb skein of yarn into a huge ball. Then I rolled a full skein of hippie colored yarn into a ball, and then some scrap black yarn, because I was bored and it was there. I should probably add the black yarn to my ball of scrap yarn... Later.
Also, I'm wanting to make my own little yarn bowl thing. The ceramic ones they sell on etsy. With the little holes so that your ball of yarn wont come out of the bowl. But I want to make them. Because they aren't worth $80. I appreciate your work as artist, I really do. And they're beautiful bowls, amazing glazes... But I can do that. I'm pretty good with ceramics. The sellers are just fortunate enough to have the supplies while I don't. I'm trying to find a local place that will let me make my own ceramics and not just paint them. If worst comes to worst I think IPFW offers a ceramics for non-majors. I'll try to get into that.
XoXo,
S
I'll post that again and bold the hilarity.
"I'll admit that Taylor Swift doesn't sound like she's country but she is."
If it doesn't SOUND like it's country, it's not. She has some country songs, but no, she's mostly pop. Pop with an acoustic guitar, sure, but pop.
ANYWAY.
I accidentally threw my lip ring away. I take it out to eat. I sit it on my tray. Every time. I've never forgotten to pick it back up and today I was not so lucky. It's gone forever. I don't have a second one either. And I'm broke for at least the next 9 days. If this grows shut I can't even get it re-pierced because my job won't let me have it in while I'm there.
And I just bleached my hair about 2 weeks ago, and I already have about a centimeter or new growth. At least I think it was only two weeks ago. Possibly 3. I guess that's not really fast for hair growth, but I haven't even had a chance to get my hair a good solid color and my roots are already visible. Doesn't help that they're dark and the rest if pastel blonde.
But I have 3 days off this week. Two of them are consecutive days. After 6 hours of work, I'm off for 48. And I rolled a 1lb skein of yarn into a huge ball. Then I rolled a full skein of hippie colored yarn into a ball, and then some scrap black yarn, because I was bored and it was there. I should probably add the black yarn to my ball of scrap yarn... Later.
Also, I'm wanting to make my own little yarn bowl thing. The ceramic ones they sell on etsy. With the little holes so that your ball of yarn wont come out of the bowl. But I want to make them. Because they aren't worth $80. I appreciate your work as artist, I really do. And they're beautiful bowls, amazing glazes... But I can do that. I'm pretty good with ceramics. The sellers are just fortunate enough to have the supplies while I don't. I'm trying to find a local place that will let me make my own ceramics and not just paint them. If worst comes to worst I think IPFW offers a ceramics for non-majors. I'll try to get into that.
XoXo,
S
January 11, 2013
Acceptance letter
Oh, I got my acceptance letter from Ivy Tech. Just have to, between now and the fall, have orientation and stuff.
One YEAR at this school is less than one semester at my last school. So, if I get the same loan money I'll be able to go full time here if I want. So I'll be done in two years if I want. Less if any of my credits transfer.
Then I'll be off to find a job that pays me more than minimum wage (if I'm not at GM. Maybe they'll call me for the summer. Fingers crossed.) Hopefully that job will be in Indy or Bloomington. Maybe it'll be out of state. Then I can finally finish up school and get my BA or even my MA somewhere other than IPFW.
I'm so fucking determined to be the first in my family to get a degree. My brother is in school again too. I hope he makes it too. I'm going to make my dad fucking proud. Prove my mom wrong (that I'm NOT a D student. That I CAN do well in school).
I hope I can keep this motivation.
XoXo,
S
One YEAR at this school is less than one semester at my last school. So, if I get the same loan money I'll be able to go full time here if I want. So I'll be done in two years if I want. Less if any of my credits transfer.
Then I'll be off to find a job that pays me more than minimum wage (if I'm not at GM. Maybe they'll call me for the summer. Fingers crossed.) Hopefully that job will be in Indy or Bloomington. Maybe it'll be out of state. Then I can finally finish up school and get my BA or even my MA somewhere other than IPFW.
I'm so fucking determined to be the first in my family to get a degree. My brother is in school again too. I hope he makes it too. I'm going to make my dad fucking proud. Prove my mom wrong (that I'm NOT a D student. That I CAN do well in school).
I hope I can keep this motivation.
XoXo,
S
An Open Letter to New Parents with Friend Problems
Dear New Parents,
I don't want to be the bitch that points this out, but having kids doesn't exclude you from being someone's friend. It doesn't mean you don't have to try or that you can neglect staying in contact with them.
Most friends understand that you won't be able to go shopping every weekend, or hang out every day. Or talk on the phone with them a lot and give them as much attention as you used to. You have a little bundle of joy that will require a lot of your time and effort for at least 6 years before you can finally take a nap when they're awake. I know there are exceptions with these friends since some people are needy, however the chances are that you thought they were needy before you popped a kid out.
But you still have basic obligations. You still need to eventually reply to that text. Unless your children are monsters (which, I know some are. Two of my cousins can't go 5 seconds without breaking or trying to eat something) you have absolutely no reason to not keep in touch with someone you call a friend.
My friend lives over an hour away, and had her very first child after a very complicated pregnancy and works full time (plus overtime) along with her husband. She makes time. She's not neglecting her kid in the least bit. If you ask her a question or try to make plans she's more than happy to. Now, will her baby be there? Probably. But does that actualy matter? No.
I'm not going to say your friends should come first (especially over your own kid), but if you've been close with someone for 20 years and can't seem to find 2 seconds to catch up with them every week or so, YOU don't deserve THEM.
It's really all up to you parents to decide. But if you can't make time for friends and they move on after feeling upset about it, don't blame them. Don't be mad at them. Don't tell them that they didn't deserve you or that you're better off. They're gone because you actively chose to not give them 10 minutes of your day or week. They're not gone because they're selfish. They're gone because what's the point of having a friend if they're literally never there for you. Can you really blame them?
XoXo,
S
I don't want to be the bitch that points this out, but having kids doesn't exclude you from being someone's friend. It doesn't mean you don't have to try or that you can neglect staying in contact with them.
Most friends understand that you won't be able to go shopping every weekend, or hang out every day. Or talk on the phone with them a lot and give them as much attention as you used to. You have a little bundle of joy that will require a lot of your time and effort for at least 6 years before you can finally take a nap when they're awake. I know there are exceptions with these friends since some people are needy, however the chances are that you thought they were needy before you popped a kid out.
But you still have basic obligations. You still need to eventually reply to that text. Unless your children are monsters (which, I know some are. Two of my cousins can't go 5 seconds without breaking or trying to eat something) you have absolutely no reason to not keep in touch with someone you call a friend.
My friend lives over an hour away, and had her very first child after a very complicated pregnancy and works full time (plus overtime) along with her husband. She makes time. She's not neglecting her kid in the least bit. If you ask her a question or try to make plans she's more than happy to. Now, will her baby be there? Probably. But does that actualy matter? No.
I'm not going to say your friends should come first (especially over your own kid), but if you've been close with someone for 20 years and can't seem to find 2 seconds to catch up with them every week or so, YOU don't deserve THEM.
It's really all up to you parents to decide. But if you can't make time for friends and they move on after feeling upset about it, don't blame them. Don't be mad at them. Don't tell them that they didn't deserve you or that you're better off. They're gone because you actively chose to not give them 10 minutes of your day or week. They're not gone because they're selfish. They're gone because what's the point of having a friend if they're literally never there for you. Can you really blame them?
XoXo,
S
January 08, 2013
back to school
I applied for a new college. One that I'm pretty sure at least SOME of my credits will transfer from.
If I don't get accepted I'm probably going to just switch my major at my current university and try to do as much off campus work as possible. I don't want to be on campus. I'm scared of running into Michael. He is, by very definition, crazy. I don't want to end up stuck on an elevator or in the parking garage or in a stairwell with him. Nope. Just nope. And I don't really like IPFW, if we're totally honest.
Now what I'm hoping for is that GM calls me to at least come in for summer help. Then I can try to save that money. Then go to a doctor and talk about my trouble focusing. And my anxiety, and the depression I still fight with. And maybe, just maybe, he can help me.
Lava lamps are so fascinating and relaxing. I could watch that baby go for hours. And probably will.
XoXo,
S
If I don't get accepted I'm probably going to just switch my major at my current university and try to do as much off campus work as possible. I don't want to be on campus. I'm scared of running into Michael. He is, by very definition, crazy. I don't want to end up stuck on an elevator or in the parking garage or in a stairwell with him. Nope. Just nope. And I don't really like IPFW, if we're totally honest.
Now what I'm hoping for is that GM calls me to at least come in for summer help. Then I can try to save that money. Then go to a doctor and talk about my trouble focusing. And my anxiety, and the depression I still fight with. And maybe, just maybe, he can help me.
Lava lamps are so fascinating and relaxing. I could watch that baby go for hours. And probably will.
XoXo,
S
January 03, 2013
Taking Friend Applications
I'm kinda drunk. And I feel like I'm drunk enough to admit that I'm lonely as fuck. All I have in my life is my boyfriend. I can't seem to find people to befriend. The people I already know are hard to hang out with. I'm super introverted so parties and raves and other group hangouts (someone I want to be closer friends to regularly has a bunch of people over to play some werewolf card game, but I can't be around so many people. It's way too much for me).
How do you meet people? How do you make friends? Have conversations? I've been a lot more talkative at work lately, practicing being social again, but I work with mostly high schoolers and adults who have different tastes in fun than myself. I actually rarely drink despite what my night may lead someone to believe. I don't really like going to bars unless I'm already with friends. Which is never. Fucking never. I'm starving for human attention. And friendly affection. I need silly and ridiculous people in my life. I have no one. Except my boyfriend.
I want to put on my silly goth outfits and my fun fuzzy hats and go shopping and just hang out at a mcDonald's to knit and crochet and eat shitty foods and enjoy $1 tea. Is that really asking so much? Why is it so hard to find that in an adult? I'd hang out with my high school friends, but being 8 years younger than myself, I start to notice how fucking old I actually am. And it sucks trying to hang out with people who still have to obey their parents and who can't hang out when I'm available because they're in school.
I met no one in college. I mean, I met stacy, but she's kinda been a distant friend without me being on campus anymore. And we never really hung out when we weren't on campus. And Tara even defriended me on facebook.
Am I really so hard to get along with? I'm so much more friendly and positive than I used to be.
Why do I have to happen upon all close friends by CHANCE? when will this next chance meeting happen, and will they move away 6 months later again?
Seriously. I'm lonely. I have a lot of loyalty and terrible jokes and general awkwardness to offer, and there isn't a single taker.
Fuck, I need to not drink this much wine at once. But I haven't been sleeping well. I just wanted to sleep well tonight. snvc.,MZNSDck.MNZSBcv.kjzsnbdvcxkjznbscxkvjbnZSD>Kjvcbzlskdjbvzkjsbcxnvk.ZN/l aoiwhef ;lkasjhdf ;lkajhfd i;m frehyinf ro type with bear mittens on anad I;m not doin g too bad.(I'm trying to type with bear mittens on and I'm not doing too bad, in case you were wondering. Not bad for drunk AND wearing the bear mittens on this bear scoodie. See, I'm wearing a bear hat with bear paws at the end of scarf like things. I HAVE A LOT TO OFFER A FRIEND. why does no one like this? I can be fun, damn it).
XoXo,
S
(sorry if I sound pathetic. it's been eating me up inside. I long for a girl who's weird in the same ways that I am who wants to do the same nothings as me.)
How do you meet people? How do you make friends? Have conversations? I've been a lot more talkative at work lately, practicing being social again, but I work with mostly high schoolers and adults who have different tastes in fun than myself. I actually rarely drink despite what my night may lead someone to believe. I don't really like going to bars unless I'm already with friends. Which is never. Fucking never. I'm starving for human attention. And friendly affection. I need silly and ridiculous people in my life. I have no one. Except my boyfriend.
I want to put on my silly goth outfits and my fun fuzzy hats and go shopping and just hang out at a mcDonald's to knit and crochet and eat shitty foods and enjoy $1 tea. Is that really asking so much? Why is it so hard to find that in an adult? I'd hang out with my high school friends, but being 8 years younger than myself, I start to notice how fucking old I actually am. And it sucks trying to hang out with people who still have to obey their parents and who can't hang out when I'm available because they're in school.
I met no one in college. I mean, I met stacy, but she's kinda been a distant friend without me being on campus anymore. And we never really hung out when we weren't on campus. And Tara even defriended me on facebook.
Am I really so hard to get along with? I'm so much more friendly and positive than I used to be.
Why do I have to happen upon all close friends by CHANCE? when will this next chance meeting happen, and will they move away 6 months later again?
Seriously. I'm lonely. I have a lot of loyalty and terrible jokes and general awkwardness to offer, and there isn't a single taker.
Fuck, I need to not drink this much wine at once. But I haven't been sleeping well. I just wanted to sleep well tonight. snvc.,MZNSDck.MNZSBcv.kjzsnbdvcxkjznbscxkvjbnZSD>Kjvcbzlskdjbvzkjsbcxnvk.ZN/l aoiwhef ;lkasjhdf ;lkajhfd i;m frehyinf ro type with bear mittens on anad I;m not doin g too bad.(I'm trying to type with bear mittens on and I'm not doing too bad, in case you were wondering. Not bad for drunk AND wearing the bear mittens on this bear scoodie. See, I'm wearing a bear hat with bear paws at the end of scarf like things. I HAVE A LOT TO OFFER A FRIEND. why does no one like this? I can be fun, damn it).
XoXo,
S
(sorry if I sound pathetic. it's been eating me up inside. I long for a girl who's weird in the same ways that I am who wants to do the same nothings as me.)
January 01, 2013
Periods and money
So basically being a vegetarian means having really light periods with little to no cramps. It's fucking sweet.
I was off by one payment with my hospital bill that was with the collection agency. It's totally paid off as of early December. I think I still have one payment left on the other one though. I have $100 in my bank account right now. I just got paid. I spent all of my Christmas money in like 2 days (mostly on yarn and knitting supplies) so none of it is my Christmas money. weird
And this was a good check. Not that I talk finances (fff- ahaha yeah, I hold little back) but it was ten shy of 400. For me, that's amazing. I have to pay my internet and phone bill, but that still leaves quite a bit of money for me. I'm going to try to save that shit. I've been on Rob about saving money for a while. I need to start doing that too. -_- Of course, he's gotten about as much saved as me.
XoXo,
S
I was off by one payment with my hospital bill that was with the collection agency. It's totally paid off as of early December. I think I still have one payment left on the other one though. I have $100 in my bank account right now. I just got paid. I spent all of my Christmas money in like 2 days (mostly on yarn and knitting supplies) so none of it is my Christmas money. weird
And this was a good check. Not that I talk finances (fff- ahaha yeah, I hold little back) but it was ten shy of 400. For me, that's amazing. I have to pay my internet and phone bill, but that still leaves quite a bit of money for me. I'm going to try to save that shit. I've been on Rob about saving money for a while. I need to start doing that too. -_- Of course, he's gotten about as much saved as me.
XoXo,
S
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