A shitty poem inspired by the misogynistic bullshit I read every day on facebook

I'm sick of your smiling
when you bitch on your blog
And I'm sick of your bitching
about how their life's not that hard

I'm tired of your judging other women
 for not being like you
That's kind of the point
that they don't have to prove.

If you're so damn satisfied
with your picket fence life
then why can't you let them
live theirs without a fight

Your morals are different
but that doesn't mean they're wrong
should they have to defend themselves,
and where they come from

I'm sick of your smiling
saying your misogyny is due
like your personal experiences
aren't special or new

She didn't deserve it
And she's not a whore.
and why are you defending
a man taking advantage of a girl?

It is not enough
that I need escorted to my car at night?
Why would you encourage that
unwanted advances are a right?

So when you're walking home
and a guy tries to follow
remember you "deserve it"
and you that said it with a smile.


-S

in which S finds her sexual identity and is pleased

I'm sorry I was at  such a low the other day. Not sorry, really, but I always feel a tinge of self-loathing when I unload my problems while being so brutally honest. I always try to sound respectful, especially of others and their privacy and all that, but sometimes I let my mouth work faster than my brain. It's probably healthy to do every now and then, actually, but I still feel bad.

ANYWAY, this is a post about my sexuality. I have discovered my sexuality. It's a real thing and I'm not weird and I should feel ashamed of it or feel dysfunctional.

I started to identify with Asexuality a few years ago when I was starting to notice how little sex drive I have. No matter how sexually attracted I was to whomever I was dating I just didn't have interest in it. I can honestly say that if I never had sex again it would probably not effect my life at all.

HOWEVER, I always felt like I broke away from asexuality enough that I couldn't really call myself asexual. I DO experience a lot of physical attraction. What I find attractive varies and I don't feel like going into it right now because it's lengthy, but I feel it. When I first meet and get to know someone I find physically attractive would be the only time I honestly have sexual urges. Literally, the only time. I think it's because I want to explore them entirely, but after I get to know them that feeling fades. Always.

I don't need sex. I already said it. I don't desire it. But because of that rare moment when I want to sleep with someone, I'm put in a grey area of asexuality. Granted, greysexual is kind of a silly word (and most people spell grey with an A but I just can't) but it seems right. I'm someone towards the asexual spectrum, but I'm in the grey area.

I know it sounds stupid to feel ashamed of not wanting sex, but you don't realize how much culture glorifies sex (even glorifies women exploring their desire to have sex) unless you don't. Everything is about sex. So many people's lives, in some aspect or another, revolve around sex, and sexuality, and sexual expression. But even though mine didn't, I just don't identify as asexual, I don't want to act like I don't find a lot of physical attraction everywhere, I just lack the desire to explore it 99.9% of the time (and that's perfectly okay. I see this now).

XoXo,
S

Jack White, My Ex, and The White Stripes

My ex  boyfriend looks like a young Jack White, although this isn't the best picture to show it. I don't want to facebook stalk him and dig through his pictures to prove it... I still find myself coming across pictures of him (and jack white, honestly) and missing his face and his music, because he's also a musician.

Then I Remembered that he also told me that this dress wasn't appropriate for a wedding. Even though it fit me nicely, and matched his tux and I was having a really really hard time find a dress and he kept refusing to go with me to look. And then I remember how self conscious I felt all the time around him because even though nothing I did seemed good enough, when I'd ask him what he was looking for he never had an answer.

So then I look at matured Jack White, I can't help but feel he's so so much sexier than his young self.

younger

older

Sure, young jack is sexy. But, there's so much charm in the older Jack. I love his face and his dimples and his perfect hair.

Sorry, I've been listening to the White Stripes a lot lately, and it's made me really nostalgic and I mean... His music is so fucking sexy.

XoXo,

S

fat people, and the "pro-fat" movement (aka, not body shaming people)

So, while there may not be a magical disease that makes you take in calories that you don't actually eat, there is such a thing as genetics, that makes you not burn calories at the same rate as someone else. 

Some people will, in fact, be overweight regardless of how much they work out or how little they eat. Some people don't burn fat very well. If some people can burn fat and calories at an alarming rate despite being sedentary, who no matter what they do can't seem to increase their body weight or gain sizeable muscle, then why the fuck is it so hard to believe that the same can be true about overweight people? (oh yeah, because thin people are hot and fat people are gross).

This can't be the first time I've bitched about this.  

Personally? I gain muscle bulk really quickly when I work out. I never seam to burn much fat, though. Even with cardio. Even with the proper diet.

My ex used to tell me that if I did cardio I'd get thinner. He used his ex as "proof" that this will work for me. His very thin ex who didn't eat very healthy foods but who's body weight barely fluctuated and probably never actually got fatter. She was probably just a little bloated. I tried explaining to him that I know my body, I know it's functions and I know what it takes for me to actually lose fat. "just doing some cardio" is not what it takes. He still doesn't believe me.

I won't say I'm talking about obese people. Just overweight. You know that I haven't gained a pound in almost 2 years? I'm overweight. I work out a little. I try to eat fruits and veggies. If I worked out, I'd lose maybe 10lbs before gaining weight from muscle. That fat would still mostly be there.

I work with a girl who's had 4 kids that's thinner than I am. She eats Wendy's twice a day, and I don't mean our salads. flat out burgers and fries type deal twice a day. 

And you know what? Even if those obese people don't suffer from some sort of disease that makes them gain weight, a lot of them suffer from physical pain that makes working out often times not worth it. Almost everyone who overeats has a form of an eating disorder, or they wouldn't eat enough food to become 300+ pounds. People just don't care because their disorder makes them fat and sad instead of thin and sad. Fat people bad. Thin people good.

Stop fat blaming and fat shaming if you're going to acknowledge that thin people can be naturally that way and that eating disorders hurt anorexic and bulimic people.