SImplicity

I have a big question I've been needing to ask for a while now. How the fuck do you actually use CS4's Photoshop? No, really. Nothing is labeled. Nothing is simple. I wanted to turn something black and white and it took me probably 10 minutes to find where THAT option was. ._. Flash was so easy to use, why would photoshop be SO difficult? I want to make vector images that are just traced over a photo (because I can't draw, don't have a tablet and just want a damn picture I have to be a drawing that ISN'T from one of those fucking filters) and nothing makes sense still. And tutorials for photoshop make about as much sense to me. Again, tutorials for Flash were easy enough to understand. I even eventually figured out other problems with nothing but Google. So why is Photoshop so hard?

:P I'm not actually angry or anything. I got the package deal from my school for $20, but I'd like to be able to make my own images. Pretty ones. I need to make a banner for my website, a banner for my other blog, and just some pretty images for use in other things (like future flash games or whatever.)

CS4 Photoshop Y U NO SIMPLE?

XoXo,
S

(I've also finally decided to make and sell things. Officially. Maybe on Etsy, probably on eBay and I'm going to have a website that isn't me being narcissistic like all my websites in high school. My boyfriend actually supports this, and is planning on helping me with the site. He's got a big work load this year just like me, but if I kinda do a mock up and have him make it actually look good it takes the tension off of both of us.)

ass patting

I got a new job. I left my old one. I don't like my new job so I quit about 2 weeks later. I'm unemployed. My brother said he'd get me back in at Wendy's. Kent may not like it, but fuck if I'm quitting again any time soon. I worked full time for two years and minimum wage (and 3 years part time, same pay, before that.) and all I want are some part time hours to get me by with money. I applied for a lot of places, hopefully some of them call back. I'd be happier to work 25-30 odd hours a week at two jobs than 30-40 at one. And if after a while, one is more seriously interested in me than the other, I can probably get a pay raise and cut my hours at the other one even more.

Now that I think about it, how many people do I know personally from wendy's that have left at least once and still work there now/worked there again for at least a year... Almost everyone I know. Including a few people who were/are assistant managers, co managers and crew leaders.

I'm asking for about a 1-2 quarter raise, though. We're supposed to get at LEAST a nickle raise every 6 months. I think that makes up for the raises I haven't gotten, and we all know I won't get another one any time soon. :\

I want to get back into the crafty things I used to do. I made like 6 dread falls (individual falls, not sets.) and if I got a $30 steamer I could do more. The hair only cost like $3 a pack, and 3 packs can make a set that I can sell for at LEAST $30. I can fucking sew for christ sake. I even have a surger that I can finish edges with if I really want to look less like an amateur. I can do a lot of things, and I'm tired of putting myself down and not giving myself any credit just because I'm too self conscious to realize I'm worth something. I AM. I'm worth a fucking lot. How adorable were the plushies I made? so cute you could DIE. Imagine if I used fleece instead of felt? and learned to efficiently sew by hand?

Bottom line is, I need to stop thinking about all the things I'm not good at, everything I haven't accomplished (yet) and everything I'm not good at, because they don't define me. :)

And you know what? I'm quiet. I'm shy. I would definitely like to be a little more outspoken, but I also value my personality. I dislike loud people, why should I strive to be like them just because other people can't be bothered to get to know me unless I shout my likes and dislikes at them?

I'm feeling pumped up

XoXo,

S

Flash Shit

lately deviantart has been bothering me. I'm mostly there for the forums anymore, because I have nothing to submit. I finally have something to submit (a flash based dress up game I made) and it won't upload, so I send my ticket to the help desk and go to complaints... It's the forum I'm normally on, and I was frustrated so I complained about it. :\ apparently it wasn't filled with enough whining because it was then locked and I was deemed as "looking for help"

Sorry, but I've been on the forums for a good 4 or 5 years now. I know what complaints is. I wouldn't put a question, especially regarding a program like flash and that made me look like an idiot, into complaints... Especially if I'm not complaining. If it weren't for the fact that the only place I can go to submit stuff like that was New Grounds (and they don't want a shitty 3 outfit dress up game) I'd just give up. Why do I keep bothering?

I have to go to bed soon. I have my first day tomorrow. Fuck, things are going badly right now. And my fucking boyfriend is anything but helpful and supportive. As usual.

XoXo,

S (gonna go sit in a bathroom and cry for a bit)

Why I don't care

That the girl was found not guilty in the Casey Anthony trial.

Because when you pick apart shit like that, you can make anything to mean anything. There are weird people out there. You don't know how you'd act in that situation unless you've been in it, and that doesn't mean you'd know how someone else would act. A kid dying doesn't mean that you have to blame the only person currently available to put blame on. And it's difficult for me, as a reasonable person (ie, NOT someone who goes "but it was a baaaby :'( someone has to pay for this!!!1!one) I can't claim that there wasn't something mentally wrong with her that could have caused her to do something terrible like kill a child, if that's what happened.

I have a soft spot for parent's who have post traumatic stress and other various mental stressers that hinder their ability to parent properly. It happens. Is the person still to blame? Yes. Does it still pull at my heart a little to see that kind of death happen? Yes. But is it the same thing as someone plotting and murdering someone? No. Should it be handled the same way? No. Does this mean she's just a crazy murderer who will strike again? No. And will she be treated differently for the rest of her life due to this? Yes. She'll face ridicule for the rest of her life.

Mostly, I just don't care about the verdict, because people die every day. Children die every day. Death, murder, suicide. It fucking happens and it's sad but to some degree that's just life and you deal. People who bullied the gay kids until they were murdered aren't going to spend the rest of their lives in prison. It's not going to effect them for the rest of their lives. What they did means nothing. But if it's a tiny kid that dies? Oh, now it's a big deal. :\ <-- unimpressed.

Either value all human life, or none.

XoXo,

S