I thought I could deal with all of this... but I can't. I thought I had everything figured out but I really don't. I thought I didn't care anymore but I still do. I wish I could fix it all but I can't.
I just want to be able to pass out and forget everything but it's really not possibly right now. I mean, I could pass out... I knew it'd be a bad idea to drink. But I did anyway. I didn't want to feel so I took away all feeling possibly. But it's still not quite enough. I can't fix this yet. It's not gonna be fixed any time soon, so I guess I just have to either deal with it or detach from the situation. Sounds reasonable. Pull away and get out of all of this.
It's not even midnight and I wish I was asleep.
XoXo,
No more,
S
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