Acceptance letter

Oh, I got my acceptance letter from Ivy Tech. Just have to, between now and the fall, have orientation and stuff.

One YEAR at this school is less than one semester at my last school. So, if I get the same loan money I'll be able to go full time here if I want. So I'll be done in two years if I want. Less if any of my credits transfer.

Then I'll be off to find a job that pays me more than minimum wage (if I'm not at GM. Maybe they'll call me for the summer. Fingers crossed.) Hopefully that job will be in Indy or Bloomington. Maybe it'll be out of state. Then I can finally finish up school and get my BA or even my MA somewhere other than IPFW.

I'm so fucking determined to be the first in my family to get a degree. My brother is in school again too. I hope he makes it too. I'm going to make my dad fucking proud. Prove my mom wrong (that I'm NOT a D student. That I CAN do well in school).

I hope I can keep this motivation.

XoXo,
S

keeping up

I've been so busy keep up with homework. But I'm actually keeping up with it and that's what matters. As of now, I feel horribly unprepared if I don't have my homework done 2 days before it's due. Which is why I haven't been blogging much. I thought I had a portrait due today for my drawing class. I didn't, but I did the homework last night and felt terrible about waiting so long for it. I need to redo it anyway, but I have til Tuesday and will probably do it this weekend.

Then I have a paper due tomorrow that I haven't even started (and really can't until I have my other notebook. I hate being unorganized.) But it's only a page and a half so I should be able to do that one just fine. I'm still feeling nervous and terrible about it though. I'm not working, which means I need to at least be doing well in school.

I've also been playing the Sims Social on facebok. It makes me want to play the real thing REAL bad. I don't have any money to buy it though. Funny thing about not having a job, right?

XoXo,
S

understanding

I downloaded a tumblr app for my droid, but its an old phone, and an HTC at that, so it doesn't really work worth shit. The phone's functionality that is, the app runs as well as any other app that I have. I still haven't done much tumbling.

Still only halfway through my algebra, but I have 5 days to finish it and I'll be on campus with all my materials tomorrow. Then I'll do my drawing homework over the weekend :D Too confused to continue on with my Composition homework though. I mean, I can easily do what I think the assignment is, but I don't want to put in the effort yet until I get a response from the teacher. When it gets to be about 8 or 9, I'll just do it and hope for the best.

I'm really getting into the concept behind learning to draw. I used to get really frustrated with Michelle because I couldn't figure out how she approached drawing in a way that seemed so weird to me, and I couldn't mimic it no matter how hard I tried. I kinda get it now.

I probably never told her how pissed I've actually gotten in the past for not being able to copy the way she she drew (not the style itself, the process.) Well, if she ever stumbles here out of boredom she'll know now. I still loved you :P

XoXo,
S

algebra 9 hours later

I've literally been working on my algebra homework for 9 hours today. I'm tired and my brain hurts and I'm frustrated because a lot of it still isn't clicking for me. Some it if is starting to though. Then I just need to repeat this studying crap tomorrow, and then again on Monday and Tuesday and I should be in good shape for the quiz.

College is starting to make my personal life shitty. I'm not a pleasant person when I'm stressed, and I've been stressing over Algebra for a while now. I probably should have dropped and done the math class bellow this, but I hate quitting. I'm surprised I'm trying so hard though. In high school, I'd have given up after 45 minutes. I'd never admit it to Michael, but he really is making me want to work harder in life to get what I want. He's frustrated with me right now, but I love him for everything he's helping me to do.

XoXo,

s